ever felt like no matter how hard you try nothing goes right? Everything just build up and breaks down before you can even say your happy. I feel like that every single day. Nobody lets me live my life and be happy. They have to be immature and fuck everything up. I can honestly say I haven't been my true self in a while. To long to even remember the last time i was happy for longer then a day. I keep hoping and wishing all the pieces will come together. All i need i something to make me happy. A boyfriend would be nice, but it would have to be someone i can stay with for a while. Fuck stupid two week relationships. Their stupid.
- Current Mood:pathetic.
- Current Music:Welcome to my life.
i miss tommy, brad and mason.
i can't wait until i see mason again though.
i miss him. he became my bestfriend through out the months.
now hes gone.
and i'm lost.
- Current Mood:missyou
Hey there, you know what? I'm going great lately. The holidays were rough, i wasn't to happy with what i got a first. But everythings okay. I got what i truely wanted. :) Being single is fun, but now i'm taken and its great.He makes me so happy, happier then most guys have in the first week. It's very suprising for me. Normally i can just be like a heartless bitch. But to him, we can make fun of eachother and it doesn't mean a thing. I'm so happy. Also i found my true friends for once, there's quite a few of them but its okay. I trust very few of them, but i bet sooner or later i'll trust most of them.
- Current Mood:creative
DRAMA SUCKS ASS, and we all know it.
i've been having a very odd day, like i felt very weird this morning. then later on in the day i got really happy/hyper n' shit. now i just kind of feel like crying, hmm i do not know. i've been stressin' way to much the past few days. smoking is like constant too;; i'm still not addicted, i promise. there's someone new on my mind; but its felt like i've known him for a while. i haven't felt like this in a long time, but i'm scared to tell him. it could ruin our friendship. maybe i should just wait and see if he'll come to me? just maybe, it'll work. he'd solve all my problems, and stop that fake smile of mine. i honestly can't stop stressing, just all these little things are building up; i'm just falling apart here.</3. i've been missing this feeling for a while now, and since it's come back i think i should hold on to it. no rush, just its tempting. butterflies, smiles, laughs, its just all coming back to me. all guys are assholes, iknoww. but they keep me steady, sometimes. :| this is hard to explain
- Current Location:mydads
- Current Mood: drained
i miss that, not him, love. </3
- Current Mood: apathetic
- Current Mood:sickofthis